“March 18, 1985 was the worst best day of my life.” I’ve been saying this for 30 years now and it still holds true. It was that day that I truly surrendered. I had to come to terms that I had done something that I never in a million years thought I would do. It surely was a very low bottom for me. The powerful, baffling and cunning trademarks of alcoholism and addiction showed it’s true colors. I had no idea my life would change so drastically that day.
Without long written drama of what my life of using and drinking was all about (if you’ve been there, you know), without all the details of loss, crime, betrayal, demoralization, trials and tribulations, it is apparent that a wonderful clean and sober life worth living takes action and support. The challenge intrigued me. It was time to make a change, a great change. I needed lots of support from people on the same journey. The Journey “was” and “is” the true challenge I found out. The daily living of life on life’s terms became a new outlook.
Life became coherent, clearer, vivid, amazing. I was told I would be amazed before I was half way through. I had no idea when half way was. But it didn’t matter. Today is what matters and it’s because I’ve had support. Support has many faces; people, animals, nature, flowers & trees, counselors, alternative medicine, education, fellowship, art, nutrition, children’s groups, books and songs, altars and avenues. I know now what I didn’t know then because of the willingness to be open and honest and accept others words, thoughts, perceptions and love.
These things are my Hope and Dream for Women in our community; Women going through a life change leaving alcohol and drugs behind and taking a step to find their true self not clouded by substance.
This Dream is “WINDS Recovery House” – A Sober Living House for Women and their Children.
Founder of WINDS Recovery House
“Women Integrating New Directions in Sobriety”